Backseat Positivity
"Able to make serious topics lighthearted and fun - I even laughed at some points!"
Get your bi-weekly dose of positivity in this fun podcast with Dr Dawn Barlow, who helps you navigate all of the weird/best/worst parts of life!
Dawn takes you on the self-improvement journey you didn't realise you needed... Bought to you by a doctor who hasn't had life as sweet as many of her comrades. She knows firsthand just how rubbish life can be, yet has managed to turn her life around for the better!
From relationships to mental health to happiness, make sure you buckle up twice a week (Mondays and Thursdays) the join her and her guests for candid self-improvement. Don't forget of the course, the "weird thoughts" segment, where Dawn and her guests share weird thoughts from their lives.
Dawn says:
Sometimes life reminds me of being in a washing machine. It's a bit spinny and turbulent for a while, but then it stops and gives you a little break before spinning you into oblivion once more. It feels like the washing machine wants to wash something bad out of all of us... positivity.
Some might EVEN say that positivity is shouting from the backseat and no-one wants to listen to it... [backseat positivity] More than once a week, but less than 4 times a week, you can shove me in your auditory canals and listen to me chat about L.I.F.E., self-improvement, mental health and anything else that my little monkey-mind paws can grasp onto.
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Backseat Positivity
Navigating Adulthood at 30: Job Hunts, Living with Parents, and Life's Big Choices
Ever felt like your life is one big, fat question mark as you inch closer to 30? Grab your headphones and join us on a rollercoaster ride through adulthood, where we swap tales of job hunting escapades, living with our folks (again), and the magnetic pull of a nomadic lifestyle. Whether you're wrestling with a quarter-life crisis or chuckling at the thought of trading in socks for Christmas, we've got the stories that echo your own—and then some.
Imagine grappling with the urge to buy a house solo in a world that seems tailored for twosomes, or the exotic appeal of working in Antarctica. Our candid conversations will make you feel right at home—or at least in the company of friends who get it. We're peeling back the curtain on the creative grind too, sharing the ins and outs of podcasting and content creation, all served with a side of dreams about comedy stardom and the quest for a fulfilling career.
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Speaker 1:I told you this is rogue. I've never in need of my coffee, dawn. Yeah, I've never done anything like this, like, not never done anything like this. I've done a podcast before, but I've never done like. I've never done it with these microphones. So, um, who knows if it'll work? I did test them beforehand and it sounded quite nice, so, but I don't know how it's gonna work with two of us, but we'll see. I'm sure it's fine.
Speaker 1:Anyway, I forgot, we've got two cameras. This is so crazy, I don't know where to look. Just look at that one. This is the bad side of me. I prefer this side. This is mainly like a me, so I'm hoping that, yeah, I'll just like this is a me camera. You can cut me out of this one, so you'll go on here. Yeah, we'll go, okay.
Speaker 1:Anyway, today we're talking about I've had a quarter life crisis. I think I've been through it. I think I've been through hers and I'm I've had two just entering mine. Yeah, the third, you never know, I think they're just ongoing. You know, I think you just go. I've well and truly hit a quarter-life crisis. Like I'm just no clue. In reality, it's probably more like a third life crisis. Yeah, because we're nearly 30. What's 30 times four? That's really bad.
Speaker 1:120. I could live to 120. I was gonna say something not mean about your grandma, but no, my nan's 100 though. Yeah, I know, but I was gonna say, do you really want to be 120 if your your grandma's like? I'll show you a photo of my nan at 100 if I've got her jeans, jeans, oh yeah. I was like do not show the camera the legs. No, no one wants to see the legs, not the legs. No one wants to see the legs. No, she had her hair done the other day. Okay, fine, she's having her hair done, she's having a little perm, but you need to show the camera, otherwise, wait, you've got one there. She mind being on the podcast. No, she will love it. She literally won't care. And then this is her, freshly done. Okay, this is her. I don't think we'll live to 120. Actually, this is dawn's dog hair, yeah, so, um, it could be a.
Speaker 1:It's a third life crisis. We're not 20 anymore. Maybe I need to change the name. I'm gonna start a podcast. Okay, that's going in dawn's footsteps. That's the potential. Yeah, but I need I think I need to talk to you about the reality of that.
Speaker 1:You nearly poured that all over your hand. I'm with a doctor. You'd have to go to the burns unit, mate, not I, well, not dr dawn. No, actually I could help you, but you, it's on your hand you might need a skin graft, yeah, anyway. So you got back from travelling much earlier than me I did. When did you get back? I got back. I think it was like the 14th April, because I started a little bit before you. 14th April, okay, so like a month. Okay, that's enough for me. Okay, it's enough. I think we need some background about how we know each other. We do not have background on the other one? Yeah, but some people might not watch that one. Well, you're gonna have to go back and watch all of dawn's podcasts.
Speaker 1:It's one about being cheated on. Yeah, um, not like the funnest of conversations. How much would you like? Just till it's white. Yeah, that's enough. I don't even know. This is quite a big coffee actually. I think I've, um, it's actually really strong as well, because you just put so much milk in it and it just took so long to go white. It's all good. Yeah, you did one on cheating. That was quite a popular one, you know, was it? Yeah, well, I think it's a thing that people don't really talk about. So it's like I feel like I could probably elaborate more on that Now. Yeah, so it's like I feel like I could probably like elaborate more on that now. Yeah, now, then we could maybe do another one in the future. Yeah, because you're out of the situation. Were you with him at the time? Sort of ish, a little bit? Well, it is complicated. It's not complicated anymore. It's a definite sever. It's a yeah, thankfully. Yes, um, that one. So, yeah, if you want to go back and watch that one then, uh, find out.
Speaker 1:But we'll give you a quick rundown of how we know each other. Okay, university, we met each other at rowing, did no rowing, we did zero. We we tried, no, we tried, we did bit. We did a training. One episode of rowing we trained. We were on the river like once, once had a couple of nights out and then just figured that maybe we're just not Sack rowing in, we're not the rowers.
Speaker 1:Can you imagine if we hadn't met each other, though, at rowing? That's crazy, I know. And then, obviously, we met. I met. You were living with Louise and Louise was my course. So we basically met at uni. So, yeah, uni. So yeah, no one cares about who louise is.
Speaker 1:Um, well, I've got some info. You could cut this out the podcast. But just for your information, no, boy charlie, definitely cut this out the podcast if he's listening or he's gonna be like don't, doesn't know who I am. Uh, as an ella boy charlie, blonde. No, no, boy charlie who's friends with z and adam uni. No, no, he's having a baby. Okay, I'd move into germany. Sorry, that's like really unimportant information for me, but it just popped into my head. I was like, okay, okay. So basically, we met at uni, yeah, uni, and we've known each other for 10 years cool.
Speaker 1:And we just went to the Philippines together. We did that was so fucking beautiful, really fun. We did a boat trip. I need to show you the pictures of your butt. Oh, for goodness sake, they look so good. Oh, I don't know about that. I was going to show you after because then I can put it at the end of the video. Nobody needs to see my bum. No, it looks great. It looks great. We did a sexy beach photo shoot. Dawn was like I really want to get some sexy beach photos. No, I want to do a video about it. I don't necessarily want the pictures for anything.
Speaker 1:You look stunning. You're really like photogenic. I'm just stood like a little duck, like yeah, but I think some people are Some people. Whereas you just like go, you just walk and you're like bow, bow. No, I think I just taught you into loads of different positions. Yeah, that on my back the next day was like oh, but I mean I, I would say I have more confidence than you. Yeah, you, I'm not very confident, but you have a better body than me. I just think it's different. We've got different size bodies. I'm taller, I'm thinner, whereas you're more muscly and I'd love to be more muscly.
Speaker 1:I'm literally going to the gym. It's so funny how we always want like separate things and it's literally not happening. Yeah, I just don't. We always want what we can't, what we don't have. I feel like I can lift heavier, but I'm not getting any more muscle. I don't look any different. I'm like I just want a bit.
Speaker 1:Having been on holiday with you, though, it just is boring. Yeah, anyway, the Philippines was great. I feel like it cured my mental health crisis. Do you reckon? Do you know? Did you hear if you, if you listen to all of my podcasts, you'll know about my semi-mental breakdown?
Speaker 1:Yeah, in January, I love listening to Dawn's podcast in the gym and I've told her she needs to make more because I keep going to the gym and I have nothing to listen to. That's so funny. You listen to me whilst you're working out and I also listen. Yeah, because I think sometimes I'm not in the mood to listen to music and if I've done a lot on like driving, I prefer listening to music when I'm like I don't want to then have to listen to more music. No, I get that Sometimes it's like really overstimulating, it's too much.
Speaker 1:I'm like sometimes I just turn off the music in the car, I turn off everything and I just sit there. Yeah, I must look like a real psychopath, but I just have a great time. But also, when you listen to like a podcast at the gym, it's like you've got a little training buddy, even though you've got, like, I love talking, so I like having someone to talk to. And in the gym, yeah, I'm the same, I don't. I love having a podcast buddy. That's a really loud clap. Um, it's fun having a podcast buddy, because usually I'm just sitting here talking to myself and Louise is always like how do you talk for an hour on your own? I'm like I don't know, I'll just practice it a lot. Also, I cut out the silences. I don't talk like and just constantly, but I do, like you know, refer back to my notes and stuff like that. But, um, yeah, I just cut out the silences, but yeah, we could, especially as you're fun employed. I am definitely very employed.
Speaker 1:This is my third life. It's not because if I say third, it sounds like it's your known. It's like I've had three life crises, which is quite a lot, right, okay, let's quickly think of a name. I've had three life crises. Crises? Um, I so.
Speaker 1:Yeah, if you've listened to my podcast, do you listen to the depressing one about my doctor friend dying? Uh, I did, I think I did. Yes, guys, it's all a lie. She doesn't listen to my podcast. No, I do, I've listened to all of them. Um, well, I haven't listened to all the like. There's a couple I haven't listened to, but most of them, yeah, I love the health ones. Yeah, there's some that, like, I think some will definitely, uh, appeal to different strong, yeah, I know, maybe just drink a bit and then top it up. Some definitely appeal to the audience more, but, like, I still like making all of them, so I just make them. And then I'm like you know what, you can just listen to, what you want to listen to. No, I have listened to the Doctor from the Die one. I listen to some podcasts and I don't listen to all of them, I just pick ones.
Speaker 1:So it's fine. It's fine, I can deal with it. I can deal with it, I can deal with it. Um, sophie, make sure you don't go out the frame. Sorry, I'm like leaning on my one-armed chair. Okay, this is the most ratchet podcast setup I understand. No, it's quite. It's fine, because I would only live.
Speaker 1:I can now like cross my legs, yeah, in the chair. Guess how much that chair cost me? 15 pounds, no, five. I was gonna say five. And I thought it did have another arm. And then just, and the chair, guess how much that chair cost me? £15? No, £5. I was going to say £5 and I thought, oh good, it did have another arm, and then it just kept falling off Because the back's quite comfy. So I was like it must be a little bit more than £5. Yeah, the arm, I do think I have it somewhere. But I was just like, yeah, I don't know, it's it. I quite like it, it's good. Yeah, but try and yeah, don't don't like slide out the frame. Should I just move it a little bit? That's fine? Um, it's all right. I think we're all good because I've shimmied. There we go.
Speaker 1:I was just trying to keep the ratchet background out. Um, oh, I always look at like things in the house and thank god it's all such a mess like. If you look behind the cameras, it's just a fucking mess. There's shit everywhere. I think that's everybody, though I feel like everybody worries about their house and they're like it just stresses me out. I'm like, look all that stuff everywhere.
Speaker 1:Tom tidied the whole house whilst I was away and I came back and I was like, oh my god, this is so relaxing. And now I've come back and it's like it's like carnage again. Yeah, it's because I didn't put things back. I'm like this is functional. You know, yeah, it wasn't like this before you came. By the way, it was like everything was put together the lights were over there, the tripods were in the cupboard actually, and everything was like in its place.
Speaker 1:And but because I've had to set up for two, maybe I'll just leave it like this. You have to come back. I'll be a regular, you know, part-time co-host. Yeah, I'd love that, because it's nice to have someone to talk to and it's much easier. It's like a bit better. Yeah, yeah, it flows way better. Well, we'll see how this um setup goes, and that might just be dead now, who knows. It's fine, I should have had it put on the other way around so that we could check. But oh well, we learn from our mistakes, guys. We learn We've got this one. Anyway, we've got this one, but I'm not looking at it. I'm not really looking at it, I'm just really bad. And then you can just see the progression over the time. It's quite nice.
Speaker 1:I feel like I was quite awkward in the first part, the first part of the one we did probably. Yeah, I was like, but I also think I've got to an age I've like hit 29. And I've just been like I just don't really care In 29 and I've just been like I just don't really care in that, like I kind of get into an age now where I don't care what people think. So I don't know that you like I think we all still do a little bit, a little bit, but like not as much as my god, when we were, when we were 20. I mean, I don't know about you, but when I was 20 I was so like I cared so much about what people thought. Oh yeah, I cared so much about what I looked like. Now I, yeah, I cared so much about what I looked like.
Speaker 1:Now I'm just like I haven't even brushed my hair. Yeah, and I'm on camera. I've literally just went with some water this morning, brushed my teeth and then my hair's been up in a bun. I was like, right, I better take it down at least. So I just take the like scraggy jacket off so I at least look semi normal, like a human being. But yeah, oh, sophie always looks nice. I just wouldn't bother with the yeah. But one thing I've every single day, I think on our Thailand trip I was like I love your skin, my skin. Yeah, dawn has incredible skin. This is just um. Friends compliment each other for an hour straight. This is what the podcast should be. You're so pretty. No, you're pretty, but you are. You know.
Speaker 1:I went on Rakuten. I know you have told me loads of times, yeah, because every time I've had it I did this. I'm like can I have some? Yeah, but you don't need it. You haven't got acne. I have a couple of little spots though that are like, yeah, but like mine was constant. Yeah, I've not. I've actually been quite fortunate that I've never had like the full blown.
Speaker 1:It's changed my life, though. Like this drug I'm on right now changed my life. It's still changing my life. Lots of drugs have changed my life, changing my life. Lots of drugs have changed my life, changed my life. Yeah, I don't know what drugs have changed my life. Are you on any? No, I'm quite openly, you know. I say which in a lot of people, don't a lot and, to be fair, it has prophylactically changed your life, as in prevented you from getting pregnant. Therefore, oh, no, well, I hit.
Speaker 1:The main benefit is I can exercise now and it's all good, because it used to always be really painful. Oh, I see. So I was like you know. I was like were you just hemorrhaging everywhere, like what was going on? No, it's not that bad. I think I'd be dead if that was the case.
Speaker 1:Hospitalise, hospitalise every time you exercise. I'm just going to really, um, hospitalise every time you exercise. I'm just going to really, right, I need to figure out what you're doing in life, because, oh, if you could, that would be, because what I Let me know, please. I've written down here. Have you got a little list of them? A little bit, yeah, just in case we got a bit lost. Okay, we probably do need some direction.
Speaker 1:Do you know what I really want to talk about? Mainly what it's like living with your parents, because I moved out when I was 16. Did you know that? Yes, yeah, I did know that, um, and I'm like I could. I just don't think I could go back. I moved out when I was 16 and I was like I'm donezoes, I've given myself until I'm, if I'm still living at home when I turn 30, there's going to. I don't know what I'm going to do. When is that? I've got pretty much a year. Okay, it's April, isn't it? So I've got some time. You've got a year. Fine, that's plenty of time. You've got to find yourself a husband. So one of the biggest dilemmas of being I'm going to talk to the camera now, because I can't treat you by this One of the biggest dilemmas about going on holiday with Dawn when you are single is that she tries to sell you off to every guy.
Speaker 1:No, I only started doing that as a joke. If we went to like Tunisia or something and there was a guy, oh, 10 camels for your friend, she'd be like yes, please, I would love 10 to have camels. Literally, they're the grumpiest animal ever. Have you ever met a camel?
Speaker 1:Yeah, I went to Tunisia and we rode camels, but I had to get pulled off because my dad shoved cactus plants like all the cactus fruit down my back. Even after, the guy was like don't pick the cactus fruit because the spines will come off. Oh, that was a prickly pear, was it? It was a prickly fruit thing. Maybe it was a prickly pear, because I've got a prickly pear over there and they're the worst. They're not near you, it's behind the curtain. Um, they're the worst because, like, fall out, yeah, they're like, fine, oh, my god, I was actually thinking about this when I was pulling the curtain down. That's so funny that you mentioned that, because I was thinking about this, I was at work and basically when I was pulling the curtain down it was months ago I got prickly pear spines in my arm and they're really hard to get out unless you have tweezers, because they're tiny.
Speaker 1:I was literally just like trying to itch, but obviously you can't reach like, oh, that must have been so awful. What dick dad, a conway, I know. So the rest of the family carried on with their camera and I just had to go and sit on a truck like. So, anyway, this south african nurse, okay, who I still work with, actually love ya, um, she said, because obviously when she lives in south africa there's lots of cacti. I assume she was like oh, when we used to get prickly pears in us, we would put um butter on on the area and it would like pull them out anyway. So we've got fucking loads of butter at the hospital, right.
Speaker 1:So I go to the fridge get some butter. I think I even got like, did I get butter or spread? I think it was like proper butter and um, because we got both and I put it on me and then I just stink of butter for the whole shift. That would just be really oily, so like it just stunk. I smelled like I don't know butter, like I don't know sandwich, just butter, like pastry, I don't know. It was kind of gross so I don't recommend that. Unless you have a shower nearby, then you could probably wash it off, but I, because it was on my clothes, on my scrubs, I was like, great, now I stink of butter. Thanks, michelle. So, anyway, I think I don't. I just think I'm going to avoid prickly pears.
Speaker 1:Have you spoken to any of the guys from travelling? No, do you know what I messaged? What's his name? Pablo, oh yeah. Name Pablo, oh yeah. And then we messaged like twice and that was it. Yeah, because you asked for his Instagram. Yeah, maybe you were like stop talking, meet him. Well, because I thought I want to go to Spain and it'd be nice to see them again, like the group. And yeah, he just didn't reply. So no, he did. He was like that's the guy you fell asleep on. No, he fell asleep on you, he didn't fall asleep on me, he went behind me. The one yeah, he didn't fall asleep on me, he went behind me. The one that was sat next to me. And then the other guy he was also called Pablo. Yeah, there was two. Yeah, anyway, anyway, yeah, so, but I'm still talking to this lady that I met on my travels, who's Irish, but she lives in New York. Ooh OK, irish, but she lives in New York. Oh, okay, where did you meet her? Met her in Laos, yeah, anyway.
Speaker 1:Um, what's it like living with your parents? Um, I hoped you might be talking to Abu, still, no, no, what's it like living with your parents? Because I can't imagine anything worse, but I have thought about it. Um, I've also thought about living in a van or a lorry, or just sleeping in my car. That's a lot of topics to cover, no, but, as in like, just in general, I've thought about living the nomad life I could do, yeah, to get away from renting. I could maybe do the van.
Speaker 1:The only issue is, like, I do love a good shower, and so that would be my only. You can get showers in them, yeah, but I just I think the faff of like I could do van life for like a summer, wouldn't want to do it in winter. And if I was going to maybe travel around Europe, yeah, I'd totally do van life. I suppose if you're going to the gym you could just like van life and gym and shower type thing. Yeah, that'd be good. Or just go in the sea yeah, that'll be good. Or just go in the sea. Yeah, biodegradable soap, like salty, still I don't know, antiseptic, I don't know. Oh my god, when I got back from Thailand I had so many bites on my legs because I spent like two weeks in the jungle like were reacting quite badly as well and my legs were like really swollen.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I remember looking at them and thinking, fucking hell, they're twice the size. You like my socks? I love a good stripy sock, they're just stripy. I love a good stripy sock. I love ones with dogs on. Yes, yeah, but I just love I'm a stripy girl. I'm not really keen on socks. I always wear matching socks. I don't know who these humans are that wear. But you also, I do remember you also would wear socks with giant holes in them.
Speaker 1:I remember being at in exeter, at your house, and I said, dawn, I need you in my life because I don't talk to, I don't listen to tom. He's like throw those pants away. I'm like I could still wear them. Yeah, you had some holy pants traveling and I was like it's fine, we're traveling, I'll let off. Maybe I need you to go through my pant drawer later Because it's still really bad. But you were literally trying to put a sock on. This was like back when she lived in Exeter. I actually want to show you a pair of pants that have really bad holes in.
Speaker 1:Yeah, now you're back home, do you want me just to buy you some new pants? Yeah, okay, I have no money. When I get a job, I don't need new socks. I've got loads of socks. I'll buy you some new pants. Actually, what people do is they buy me them for Christmas now, because at my birthday, because they know that I'm really bad at throwing them away. So then I have like a bit of a purge at the end of the year.
Speaker 1:I actually have too many socks and stuff. Right now I have so many socks. All. Right now I have so many socks. All of them are like just one. I don't have any pairs. Why can't we stay on topic um? So yeah, we're.
Speaker 1:So you have your own bedroom. I assume I have my own bed. Of course I've got yeah, yes, I've got my own bedroom. How many bedroom? Is it like a four bed house? Yes, it's a four bed. Quite big, not really not for like it's big. If you have like no, it's not big. And your brothers live there. My two younger brothers live there. My older brother lives in London. That's so crazy, isn't it Like we're going back in time or like Asian people live like that? They all live as one big family. Yeah, and I don't. Maybe that's what we need, just bigger houses.
Speaker 1:It's not like hell, like I can deal with living at home, but it's just a bit difficult because you just feel like you've got to run on like a collective schedule almost kind of thing. Really, you don't have to, but it's like what do you mean by that In terms of like my dad will do the dinner in the evening? And it's like it's then difficult because our kitchen's quite small. I can't then come and just cook my own food, so I just eat whatever they cook. Do they not cook you food? They do? Yeah, no, yeah, they cook, but they're not very like healthy. They're not the healthiest. I'd like a lot of vegetables. And what do they cook? My dad's quite a simple cook. If it goes in the oven, ah, so it's like pie and chips.
Speaker 1:Yeah, what did you have last night? Well, I was at my grandma's, so I had fish cake and pasta. It was a weird combo, but, like, my grandma doesn't have any food in her house, so I just took whatever. My dad had bought fish cakes and I was like, right, I'll take the fish cakes. And I was like, right, I need something with the fish cakes. But it got quite late so, to be honest, I just threw some pasta. It was a bit of a. I had pasta last night. It was a mismatched dinner, but you know, I had a weird meal as well.
Speaker 1:I had, um, pasta with baked beans, and they have vegan sausages in the baked beans. I do love some sausage. I love sausage beans. Yeah, the problem is I always feel a bit gross eating the like pork ones, because I'm like there's probably no pork in them. I'm like what is in there? Just so I went for the vegan ones.
Speaker 1:Not as good, but like still fulfills my, my sausagey needs. What do? Um, I would just move away. Is that that creaking? It's just a chair. Yeah, I'll try. And um, try and Sit. Still there we go, that's better. Yeah, still fulfills my sausagey needs. And then I had asparagus with it and some cheese on top. That's a good meal. Oh, quite a nice meal. It was really good. Actually, I actually had some more pasta. I was so hungry and then, anyway, whatever, but fine.
Speaker 1:And then, how many bathrooms have you got? Two, two, two. Well, there's like three toilets. There's a downstairs toilet and then two bathrooms and then, like my parents have an en suite and then like a main bathroom. But that's really good.
Speaker 1:I've never been to your house. I kind of want to come now. Come to my house. Can we have a sleepover? Can we have a sleepover? Woo, do you know what?
Speaker 1:I just really want to go back to, like life as not a child, but like, I guess, a child. But like, well, like I mean that's like my parents will do the washing up, but I I can't. It's the what I will do. Anything else, I don't mind doing any, I'll clean everything. I'm like washing up, yeah, do they not have a dishwasher? No, oh, dishwasher is your dad. Yes, my parents don't like the dish. They've never bought into a dishwasher type thing.
Speaker 1:It's the do you know what? Washing up. Even when I was like living with my ex when I was lifeguarding, I was like I will do everything. Just, I cannot wash up. Yeah, like I can do like a little bit. If there's like you know you've had some cake and a cup of tea breakfast, I can do that type of thing a little like a little quick done finish, but wash oh, I just don't know what it is like my hands in the nah.
Speaker 1:My idea of washing up is just leave it in a bowl for half an hour. Oh, that's the thing I hate. So my brothers are the worst. They were literally like they'll be like the washing up bowl and there'll be like a little bit of water and they'll leave their pots in and then the water goes cold and I think it's washed up and I'm like I can't then no, no, I don't get to that point. Lots of bubbles, give it a little pre-wash before to get all the like stuff off and make sure it's been soaked and then leave it in there for like half an hour, come back and then and it's like very minimal washing. It's actually more just just a little wipe.
Speaker 1:I don't get people that dry up. No, we're not dryers, unless it's like a huge amount of stuff that you need to. Yeah, space, but no, because I'm like it's probably less hygienic to get a tea towel to dry stuff to, then I don't know, it's also pointless. I towel to dry stuff to, then I don't know, it's also pointless. I'm like it's going to dry anyway. Why don't you just wait for it to dry and then put it away? I don't know. There are some people that like putting everything away, don't they? But we do our own like washing, like clothes washing, yeah, all that stuff.
Speaker 1:Do you spend time together in the evening, me stuff. Do you spend time together in the evening, me and my mum? Well, yeah, so the boys will sort of like do their own thing and like they eat in their rooms, which I find is disgusting. I'll have a cup of tea in my room and that is literally the limit. Do you eat with the family? Sometimes I do. Most of the time they don't. Also because, like, how old are they? 27 and 25. Oh, they're quite like not old, but like they're not like 20. So my youngest brother starts work quite early, so he likes to come in and eat almost straight away, because obviously he goes to bed earlier and then we usually eat at like 7 coincides with the channel 4 BBC news.
Speaker 1:Channel 4 BBC news old people watch the news. Oh my god, when we go to so you can when we go to Tom's family's house, they have the news on like four times a day. It's like they know when it comes on. They even know the news presenters' names and I don't know how I avoid the news Because you just watch it. So, yeah, I avoid it, I don't mind. I like the news when it's like a new story or like a unique, but when it's the same thing, I I'm like what am I getting today that I didn't learn yesterday? I know they repeat the same shit and I'm like you're I mean, obviously we're talking a lot and I'm like how are you talking about the same thing for like hours? You know they have a script, I know, but like it's not. But yeah, we yes, we usually eat at seven o'clock and then, and then watch the eight o'clock news. No, it was seven o'clock, seven o'clock news. Oh, so you watch the news whilst you're eating. Yeah, oh, wow, the news is on in the background. That's crazy, yeah, wild.
Speaker 1:How do your parents feel about having three adult children at home? My poor mum was really expecting to have us married off with babies by now and all of her friends so like not all of her friends, a lot of her friends children, obviously are all similar ages to us and they're all like getting married and like. So some of them are going to their kids weddings. Your older brother is doing something and what has he got a 20, 30, 40 quid for, like a video camera, because I think that's what I need, because that's not a video camera, yeah, it's just a camera. We can look into it, fine, yeah, so, yeah, that's my worry.
Speaker 1:I mean, yeah, if I could give her a grandchild that she can like look after, do you know what? I think? That's kind of. I sort of have thought about that. I'm like maybe I could just have one give it to them. It could be their pseudo-child for like a few years, although that is kind of like the nice stage, the baby, yes, oh, wait, no, because when they're a toddler and they get their personality and they start talking, then they're funny and then you can like have a conversation but get rid of them at like age five to the grandparents, yeah, and then which is fine, because it would coincide with my mum like retiring yeah, it's time, yeah. But then I think the nice thing is I well, it's nice, it's not nice.
Speaker 1:I am would love for one of my friends to have a baby so I can just come and be fun auntie. I really want to be the fun auntie, I know. I just can't believe no one that I know is having a baby. I think it's because we surround ourselves with people that are not of that volition. But I think it's great because I also then think, hopefully, my friends this is very squeaky chair, I thought it was going to stop. I'll just try.
Speaker 1:Not, you're quite a gesticulator. I like to um, yeah, because then all, hopefully all my friends will have babies at the same time, because I'd also hate to be the only one out of all my friends to have had a baby and then just be doing it all by myself and then or like for all of my friends to have a baby, and then I'm just like five years behind and like you guys are getting rid of your kids at like school and you're still stuck with the baby and you have no, like they're not really there because they've done it. Can you believe we're talking about this? Well, I know I don't feel like old enough. Yeah, like I can't even afford to keep myself at the moment. Hello, yeah, I am unemployed, living with the mum and dad, so, but it sounds like all of your family are kind of doing that, but they're not employed. They're not unemployed. So they're.
Speaker 1:Your parents keep saying like are you gonna get a job? Are you gonna get a job? Yeah, I feel like that's what my mum would do. Yeah, she'd be like so have you looked at any jobs today? Yeah, I have been applying, but what I was thinking is I just wanted to avoid the whole temp just kind of the shitty temp jobs and I'm like been trying to apply for like proper full-time, long-term positions. So it's been taken. It's taken a lot longer because the application processes are like harder. Yeah, they are. You've got to do jobs. They're just like bam. So here's my cv quick little interview, perfect done. Yeah, they check. You're not a psycho. Yeah, whereas like the full-time job, it's like jump through this hoop and jump through that hoop, and I know it took me five months to get on the locum bank at the hospital here. It took so long. I was like, but it's like, yeah, it's not a permanent job, but it is like a very regular term, yeah, kind of position, which is good. Do? Um? This might be like a personal or offensive question, okay, but I'm gonna ask it anyway because YOLO um do?
Speaker 1:Would you feel, do you feel, embarrassed about saying that you live with your parents, like if you met a guy or no? I don't, it doesn't bother. Like it kind of bothers me in the fact that like I wish I wasn't living at home, I wish I had like a bit more of an independent life, but it doesn't bother me that I'm like I don't think it's like an uncommon thing. I know, I think we're going back. This is what I mean. Like I think it's not uncommon anymore and I think it's actually it's more of like a sensible decision.
Speaker 1:And also, when you're by yourself, if you're in a couple, it's easier because if you're gonna go and rent somewhere, like if you, you have it, yeah, if you're thinking like, say, somewhere's gonna cost you a thousand pound a month in terms of rent bills, it obviously is gonna vary depending where you're gonna rent and what you're gonna rent. But if you're by yourself, you're paying a hot like that's all on you, whereas if you're in a couple it's 500 pounds. I know it's crazy. And the same with buying a house, like if you're buying a house with somebody else where you've only really got, like you've got two wages to cover the mortgage, like you've got both your savings, and then not just like just logistical sense, isn't it? Like that's what I mean.
Speaker 1:I think it's a, it's a shame you can't like buy a house and it's like are you buying it by yourself? Okay, yeah, you can have a half price. Yeah, because that would be like, yeah, that would make sense, but it's not obviously not gonna happen. And I think it forces people into situations like staying with people that they don't want to. Yeah, because, well, I can't afford to not be. Yeah, totally. Do you know what? I know so many people like that. Well, not so many. I'm like exaggerating, but I know at least one person or you know you could have been in that situation if you bought a house with your ex. Like you're kind of stuck with it, you know, and that's why people don't leave these situations, because, yeah, I think you should get a single person discount. But then the issue is there would be no houses. Yeah, because everyone would just buy one on their own or people. If you're going to come to sell your house, it's like, oh, we've got someone here who's going to pay like 300 000 for your house, and then you get another. I've got a single person here and, yeah, they want to buy it for 150. No, there should be no. No, not like a half price discount, but like a single person mortgage. Oh, yeah, so you should be able to get. Yeah, I don't know, but I mean it's not gonna happen, but because someone would have to subsidize it, it'd have to be like the government or something, and they didn't give a fuck.
Speaker 1:I saw rishi sunak in like not in person, but like in a video being like you know, walking around like a human, and I was like, oh god, what are you? He looks like an alien, just the way he like behaves. I'm like, are you an alien? He just doesn't really have it like. I don't think he's got an idea, though. See, like you just say something about. His wealth went up like hundreds million, and I was like, yeah, you don't. He could literally give lots of people lots of money and be fine.
Speaker 1:We were, tom and I were watching you know those millionaire like um tv, uh, sorry, millionaire, uh, house viewing things. Oh, yeah, it's like, this is a 58 million pound house. Um, we were watching one of those yesterday. To be fair, actually, I've just realized that that was 58 million dollars, so it won't be 58 million pounds, so maybe it's still affordable. But we saw this really fucking nice one. We saw some really ugly ones, though, I know, but I think some people have so much money they just just buy it and they don't really care what it's like. Yeah, but, like, we saw this um nine million pound one. It was actually in like Bedfordshire or something and it was just so boring. I was like, oh, that was a really nice. Oh, maybe I'll show you that 58 million dollar one, and it was like Bali inspired. It was so nice.
Speaker 1:But then I was thinking, I was looking at them and I was like do you know what? I can't even look after this place. There's dust everywhere all the time. You would have to employ somebody yeah, you would, and you're like heating, otherwise you'd just be constantly cleaning it, yeah, and then you got furnish it. I'm like, and it's also we were talking about it, we were like I think if you're paying 58 million and it's like, I would be like can it come furnished for that much money? You know, yeah, I'd get like all my friends to move in. Yeah, because I would be so fucking lonely.
Speaker 1:Because I was like there was one room and it basically looked like something out of a psychopath movie. It was just like this empty, black and white, kind of like huge space, but like with a few sofas in it, and it was just like can you just I can't imagine just sitting there on my own with? It was literally like a church size room with like four sofas. You'd have to have a lot of dogs. It just doesn't like make sense.
Speaker 1:I feel like you need like 10 families to live in it or something, or make it into like an Airbnb or something like that. I don't know who these people are that are living in it, like I really don't. I don't know. I'll move in with you. You could have all your grandmas walking around it, all of my grandmas. You've got two that are like you talk about all the time. That are like you talk about all the time. Yeah, I know I don't want to do when they're not here. Yeah, I reckon you should become a carer for one of them. I don't think I could do that. That's a tough job. I take my hats off to these carers because they are. It's stressful, yeah, fair, and you'd always have like the worry.
Speaker 1:To be fair, I, yeah, I looked after my granddad, like when before he started going really downhill and I I just really struggled to sleep. I had to get those like monitoring equipment, like baby monitor. We've got, yeah, we've got cameras in the house so we can like check on her. Well, I can't access it, obviously, my mom, because they move so silently. Yeah, they literally my granddad, he moves slowly. Well, he's not alive anymore, but, um, he used to move so slowly but so silently. I put a bell on his um like a little cow well, no, it was actually so he could ring it. Right, I put a bell on his zimmer frame so that when I, when he needed me because his voice was just like, like he wasn't able to shout, I put a bell on his Zimmer frame like I tied it on there and then he would like ring me. But then he thought it was funny and would just ring all the time. Bless him.
Speaker 1:So I stayed at my grandma's last night and it's like an old cottage and I was asleep and I had to check on her just before I fell asleep. I was like I'm going to have to. Just she's all right, because we put her in the bed. Usually she sometimes sleeps in the chair Me and her carer. Oh right, she comes in. And then I was like you know, when you start stirring in the morning and it's like five o'clock and I'm like I can hear noises, I'm like be her, she couldn't have got out of bed. But then it plays in your mind like have, is that? Was that a noise I heard because she's fallen out, or is it just the cottage is really old and like you can hear, like birds on the roof or whatever. She was absolutely fine, but you just worry.
Speaker 1:You think that's why I got a like kind of your fault. Yeah, I know, I actually found my granddad on the floor one morning and I was like I don't think he was there for long. But that's when I was like right, we're getting. I got like a an alarm when he swung his bed, his bed, swung his legs out the bed. Oh, and the pressure. No, it wasn't pressure, it was like a motion sensor and it would do you know what. I didn't even have the noise on, but it would like go with a light, and that was enough to wake me up, like I didn't sleep very deeply. And, um, I also had a baby monitor next to his bed because I was just, you can't keep getting, yeah, in and out of bed like no, you're every five seconds. Yeah, stressful it is, and I think it's hard looking after constant as well.
Speaker 1:I think if you're looking after somebody who you're not related to, it would be easier because you can be a bit more like subjective about things. I don't know, it's quite nice if you care about the person, though, isn't it? Yeah, but you would still care if we've got a nice carer who looks after my grandma? She's like a private one, so she's not like just rushing from people to people, so she's literally only looking after my grandma. She's like a private one, so she's not like just rushing from people to people, so she's she's literally only looking after my grandma. Oh right, that's nice. So you pay. She pays for it, yeah, for it.
Speaker 1:Him, her, her, yeah, um, I meant it the service, not it the person she pays for it, the service, um, and I think as well, like I, my grandma will ask me to take her to the toilet, but I don't think she'd want me to start like washing her and things, because she said before she's like you shouldn't be having to do this, like kind of thing. Yeah, that's what my granddad had, like he I would help him to go to the toilet, but he had a carer come in like once or twice or twice a week and she, I think, would wash him. Yeah, so I think they don't want it, do they don't want their like. Yeah, grandchild, especially we're opposite sexes, it's yeah, yeah, yeah, my grandma, I said I don't mind my brothers to take her to the toilet. Yeah, I don't think she'd do that, which is fair enough, but yeah, I feel like we've gone way off topic.
Speaker 1:We have, we are like join Sophie and Dawn, and you just don't know what you're gonna get. I know right, it's literally like I think this is just how people have conversations, though it's just like a normal conversation because, like people don't have conversations in like a linear no, we definitely fashion, I feel like most people don't, no, but like sometimes when people have, you know, when you're in a fairly big group, and then people have a conversation and I sort of go silent and I think about the last like conversation and then I like bring it up again, forget that we've moved on. Um, can't really do that here because it's just us two. Us two yeah, well, we've covered living with your parents.
Speaker 1:Um, do you actually think you're in a crisis? Like, are you having like a mental? No, I'm not having like a mental issue. I'm fine in that department. I think it's not like questioning your mortality or no existentialism, or like I'll get out of bed in the morning. You seem like you're functioning well.
Speaker 1:I have a 10 month old puppy, so I have to get out of bed in the morning. You seem like you're functioning well. I have a 10 month old puppy, so I have to get out of bed in the morning. I don't have a choice on that one. He's a nutter, he's. Does he sleep with you? No, millie sleeps in my room and when he comes in at night she's sleeping in the cage. No, he's too big for it, just sleeps downstairs. He just sleeps downstairs. Yeah, but then when my mum goes to work he'll come up and if I'm still in bed, he'll usually jump on my bed and have a little snooze and then he's up and he's like right, let's go. I know, yeah, I'm like can we just chill? Just wait another ten minutes. No, I'm not having a mental crisis.
Speaker 1:I just think I'm at the stage where I'm like what am I doing? Like I don't know, I don't have like direction for my life, kind of thing. And I'm like you know, I did the lifeguarding for six years. Obviously I did the CPS stuff which I loved, but then I was like I want to go to Australia, and I'm glad I did, because I the good thing about being single and not having a house. You can just go and do that, whereas right now I'd have to talk to Tom about it. He wouldn't want me to go because he's got a job here and then I'm renting this place and it's like, well, I can't rent here and then go to Australia. It doesn't make sense. Yeah, I think that's why I'm not interested in guys at the moment, because at the moment, because I'm just like I'm not, I don't know what I want to do. So why am I going to get into a relationship? Because then I'm going to know if I can live your life, girl. So yeah, but yeah, I think I'm just at the stage where I'm like what am I doing where? What am I going to do? I'm going to go back to Australia. I'm going to stay here. What kind of job am I going to do? Stay here, I want a job. That's a job in Bristol travel.
Speaker 1:I did apply for a job in Bristol. It was like hybrid Bristol, london home. I need to chase them up. I think you need a nomad job. That's what I keep saying to you. I do. I know If anybody has any jobs out there for a very probably underqualified human being. No, you have to sell yourself. I know I'm really bad at that, though that's a problem. Yeah, same, um, tom's really great at it. I wrote a cover letter and he basically rewrote the whole thing for me. So I'll write a cover letter and give it to Tom and be like right, rewrite. Well, he's really good at English, true, okay, I'll employ Tom.
Speaker 1:So you should see like my first draft and then his final one is like I, I think the thing is mine has personality, yeah, and his is just really like professional and corporate and I'm like bleh boring. But that's probably what gets you jobs. Yeah, exactly, but it's boring and I'm like. I don't want to be a boring person. Yeah, I'm like you, though I'm just like. They obviously want to know what I'm about, so I'm like this is me and obviously so I'm like this is me and obviously me doesn't get me jobs, kind of thing. They want you to be this like boring they want you to be. Yeah, they want. And if I just start writing a cover letter as if I'm just talking to them about myself, they're gonna be like bye, bye, bye bitch.
Speaker 1:I'd rather listen to this. I'd rather read this really dull, boring, corporate style cover letter that tells me everything about this person but nothing about this person. And I'm like but this is what I mean. I've got to the point where I'm like I can't do that. Like this is me. If you want me, have me. If you don't want me, fine, I'll find someone else.
Speaker 1:I know it's a difficult place to be in, though, when you don't have anyone. When you're like supply and demand, you know they've got other options. I know what you mean, though it's a bit like I don't want to pretend to be somebody that I'm not because like, but needs must. I suppose that's the problem. But yeah, I think I'm just at a crossroads of what I want to do. What do I want to do?
Speaker 1:I think this is an exciting point in your life, though I just I got to that point like, if you listen to my podcast, it basically like maps out my whole life crises, right, had my doctor friend who died, and then I was like what the fuck is life? What's going on? Am I gonna die tomorrow? If I die tomorrow, have I lived life? Like do I feel happy with myself? Like blah, blah. And that's why I went traveling. And, um, because I love traveling, and I realized I had just hadn't done it and I was like why am I living my life not doing things I enjoy? All I'm doing is sitting here. I enjoy podcasting, I enjoy my work, but I want to like I want to go out and do things and then come back and do those things. You know, I'll just check that's still going.
Speaker 1:And then, yeah, I probably did go away for too long, but because now I have no money that was my issue. I'm probably poorer than you. No, do you want to see my bank account? Is it in minus? Well, I mean, I have a big credit card bill that is not going to be paid off for a while. Luis is like you don't get an Amex card to build up like credit.
Speaker 1:I said, luis, that was my plan. I equally wasn't supposed to spend as much money as I did. Yeah, why don't you get your parents to pay it off? Because there's no interest. True, they can probably do it, maybe, and then um'll see. And then that's why I was like I'll just do this temp job, we'll just get some money. You say I'll give you 1%, I'll give you 4% interest. Say that I keep them company, but, as in like in Amex, it's 30% interest. Right, yeah, if you say to your parents, I'll give you 4% interest, I don't. Yeah, I'm pretty. Yeah, do your parents mind paying? Because they must have to, like, give you money, right? No, I just put everything on my credit card. Oh, sophie, it's really not the way to live, is it?
Speaker 1:I did have to pay for my hygienist yesterday. It was so expensive. How much was it? 77. Okay, that was less expensive than I thought. I'm just drinking more coffee to, like.
Speaker 1:You know, give it more work, build it back up. Give it more work. I need to go to the hygienist, to be fair, it's fine, but you have a car. Do you know what I was thinking? But yeah, the issue is with the. I've done so much driving. I know I'm tooaster to see my dad's mum. There you go.
Speaker 1:It's a lot, I think, since I've been back, obviously because I don't pay rent at the moment, which is fantastic because I have no money to pay rent. So they make you pay when you don't. Yeah, when you have a job, yeah, how I think my brothers pay £150 a month. Ooh, that's pretty good. And then my brothers like one of my brothers is so slow to pay each time, aaron, like do you not know how cheap this is? Yeah, like, if I paid £150 a month, like since I started working, I'd be like rolling money. I know that's great, but my two younger brothers have no idea. They've got no clue when they move out. Have they never moved out? They've never. They've never lived away Because neither of them went to uni, oh my God. So they've never had to like. They obviously buy their own stuff and sometimes they buy their own food, but like they've never had to.
Speaker 1:Like, yeah, wow, that's crazy, it's gonna be, that's gonna be a real shock to the system. I'm just gonna reset the camera sometimes because it's just like, uh, only records for half an hour, um, so, yeah, well, I can't remember what we're talking about now, do you? Do you know what, though? I had the same issue when I was, when I in January last year 2023, what year are we in? 2024? Yeah, 24.
Speaker 1:Last year, when I was like, do I even want to be a doctor? And I was like, I've worked my whole life for this and it's kind, it's like now my being, yeah, that I've got like a solid career. That's like, well, it also just becomes you and you become it, you know, that's like how you identify, and I wasn't ready to give that up and I was like I wanted to do acting. And then I looked into it, right, and the issue is with acting is, um, there's a lot of nepotism. Do you know what that is? I don't want that to sound patronizing, but it's like not a word that people use, I don't know.
Speaker 1:Okay, um, nepotism, I'll explain it. It's basically family favoritism within you know, if your dad's an actor, you're more likely to be an actress or whatever, because they can get you roles and also you've got a head start in the industry. Anyway, there's so much of that. If you look at most of the actors in Hollywood, not saying that's where I want to be, but in Hollywood, almost all of them, their parents are actors or you know one of them. Yeah, they've got connections or like one's a model or something like that.
Speaker 1:And that's not saying they gave them jobs. You know they still had to work for it, but I was like you know what am I? I'm never gonna get there. That's not very good, I know, but like I was, like it felt it's just harder. You've got more obstacles. You've got to prove yourself more, also acting. You bet you need like training which costs a lot of money. It's basically like a really hard thing to change into.
Speaker 1:Ironically, medicine is actually an easier job to go from like okay, I want, I was like an actor. Um, I now want to be a doctor, but then that would be easier. Yeah, yeah, but as in like to get into medical school, that would be easier Really, yeah, I feel like that would be really difficult. Well, the issue is I couldn't get any funding because I've already done a degree. Yeah, I couldn't do a master's because my initial degree wasn't in acting, so it doesn't make any sense. I can't just then go, I'm gonna do a master's in acting, um, and I did get a place, a summer school, but it was five grand and it was full-time as well, which is great, and I really I would still love to do it.
Speaker 1:You know what, if somebody gave me because realistically I think it was like two months, right, realistically, on top of that five grand I would have needed living expenses for two months and that's then it goes up to like 15 grand. So it's like I just didn't have the money for it. And yeah, it's expensive, like and there's no guaranteed job at the end of it. You know, with medicine you're guaranteed a job, like 100% guaranteed, if you pass, but that's assuming you pass. But then if you do get a job and you do make it in acting, yeah, it's a very competitive area.
Speaker 1:I know medicine is, but it kind of doesn't feel that way to me because I'm like in it there's just a big demand there, isn't there. There's a very competitive area. I know medicine is, but it kind of doesn't feel that way to me because I'm like in it there's just a big demand, though isn't there? There's a demand everywhere, whereas and I suppose you've got like a broader. But like, once you're into medical school, yeah, it's like. But with acting, it's like you've got to. Every job is different. Yeah, yeah, you're like you've got to fit. There's competition at every point, whereas, yes, it's the same for medicine, but because now I'm in that sub-select group of qualified people who they've only got a finite amount of they only, yeah, there's less competition.
Speaker 1:Whereas getting into medical school was like, well, I mean, I did it first time. But so, like, looking back on it, I'm like, was it that hard, you know? But I don't know. I don't know because I only did it once. But, um, I had a really good school to help me in which I think was probably the only reason and good grades. Obviously I worked hard. But, um, yeah, anyway, going back, I had that crisis where I was like I don't want to do medicine, but I want to do like more creative stuff, but realistically, you need like a lot of money to be able to do that, and I didn't, and I'm still doing this, obviously.
Speaker 1:And, um, maybe you should become a presenter. Just build up podcast a presenter yeah, I find presenters really boring. I think it depends. I'm thinking like news presenter? Oh no, I'm not talking like news presenter. I'm thinking like, do you know what they have to say? Like the right thing. They have to like talk. They have to say certain words and they can't say certain words, and I kind of like just being myself. Yeah, um, I do.
Speaker 1:You know what I really want to do and I'm scared but I would love to do it is, um, comedy. I think you'd be so good at that. I really want to be a comedian, but do you know what? Stand-up comedian? Or like a okay, what else, I don't know? Like a non-stand-up comedian, a sit-down comedian? No, but like you can have comedians, can't you you that? Like, do like more like comedy shows, as opposed to like standing up on a stage doing, yeah, I think most of them start in stand-up though. Yeah, yeah, oh, like a comedy actor type, yeah, no, I'd want to be like a comedian that told stories and I really wish I had someone to like do all the cameras.
Speaker 1:So now I'm trying to talk to you and think about, like, are they on? Are they recording? I should probably have checked the battery. We haven't finished my comedian story. Oh, it's still fully charged. Okay, is this still going? Yeah, it's on 35%, but oh, that's all right, it's fine.
Speaker 1:Um, yeah, I really I want to write a comedy show, and you know what? I started writing it and I'm just too scared to go up on stage. I'll be your first test audience. It's kind of weird, though, performing to one person, because I feel like that's a lot of pressure. Puppets I'll bring the dogs over. Then there'll be five of us, four dogs and me.
Speaker 1:I feel like that's a lot of pressure for like laughs. You know, like as in for you to laugh because you'd be like it'd be so awkward. No, it wouldn't. If it was shit, you'd be like. You just like have to, you know, be like laughing. I'd be like ha ha, no, no, because I want to actually like it. Yeah, I think I tell you what that might work, because I was thinking, you know I can give you some feedback with all of my acting comedy experience. Um, I'll be honest though.
Speaker 1:Yeah, tom would be my worst critic. Yeah, he'd be. He's savage. Yeah, he's like I'll tell you what, though. I have said some things and he's been like that's like I'll tell you what, though. I have said some things and he's been like that's really funny, why don't I'll. And then I'm like why is that funny? Why both will. Both will be like. You can have two in the audience me and Tom, I don't know. I feel like that's more pressure, having like two people that you know really well, rather than like 10 people that you don't know and you might never see again. No, because if it's really shit, then we'll just be like drawn.
Speaker 1:I hate to break it to you, but I think maybe let's steer away. I don't think it would be that shit, though I don't think it will be. Do you know what? I think it would be like 50% good, but then we can help you. And then you'm not trying to be funny. Yeah, I'm just, I'm excelling at it. But when you're like standing up in front of people, it's like, and you're like people are expecting to like you to be funny, yeah, and then, if you're not, it's like so I think you have to be even funnier because they're expecting it, whereas like when it's just like it just happens and it catches people off guard, they're like oh, that's really funny. Yeah, I think that's the thing.
Speaker 1:I tell you what I made a joke about. Um, it wasn't even supposed to be a joke. It just like happened to be a joke. But Tom was like, oh, you should keep that in, you should put that in your comedy show. I think I made a joke about like oh, so some, there was, there's some patients that like have um seizures like close to the hospital, and then people walk past and they um, they like check on them and then send them in, and I said, oh, if I this is a joke. By the way, I just want to point out this is a joke, this is not real. Just put disclaimers out. Yeah, I just want to put it. Maybe say something throughout the whole comment this is a joke.
Speaker 1:This is a joke or because it'd be funny, I would make like um, I'd make really inappropriate like doctor medical jokes and I think people would be like, oh my god, she's such a terrible doctor and I would be like she's the best doctor. You don't know that. We're like she's doctor, yeah, you're annoying. I'm like Sophie's single and Sophie's like Dawn's a doctor and I'm like probably quite as bad as each other. Because she don't want people to know, I'm like literally tell everybody.
Speaker 1:We were on a boat trip in the Philippines, do you know? People came up to me and like I had a fucking clinic. Yeah, love it. And I was like I'm like you go, you go, dawn. I think I've overheard that conversation. Bless him.
Speaker 1:He was like I think he was German, wasn't he? And he was like yes, but I don't expect me to have that is not what Germans sound like. I don't expect me to have Disgrace. If you're German, please don't take offence to Dawn's horrific German accent. I'm really bad at accents. So basically, dawn, if you want to go into the acting world, don't ever say you can do a German accent, but don't you think that'd be funny? Because that's like a really bad German accent and actually not a German accent. But that is an accent Like what accent? Is that Norway? No, I mean, it sounds, I would say German, but I don't actually think there's any Germans that sound like that. There definitely are, if you get what I'm saying.
Speaker 1:Anyway, the joke was disclaimer. It's a joke. I was like if I saw one of those there was a certain patient that was doing it a lot I was like, oh, if I saw him when I was on the way to hospital. I'd be like no, sir, sorry, you've got to wait four hours to see me. And Tom was like, oh, that was really funny because and I was like why? And he was like because you actually do have to wait four hours. And I was like, oh, okay, um, but so, yeah, it's things like that. But I mean I said that like not as a joke.
Speaker 1:Well, it was a joke, obviously, but you weren't saying it. I wasn't like to be like to be funny. So it's like, how do you say that to be funny? I don't know. I think you just have to make it like more animated.
Speaker 1:I think you sometimes have to like give a bit of a backstory, ish. You can't just say the one-liner, you have to give context. Yeah, exactly, because I'm not gonna give context here, because that will take me like five minutes, and but what I'm saying is like some people, if you were in an audience, would be like why is she saying they've got to wait 5 minutes if they're not like following the news and know that like ambulance waits? Oh, come on, everybody surely knows they have to wait 4 hours for a doctor. Do you know? The wait the other night was 12 hours. Gosh, that's ridiculous.
Speaker 1:I felt so sorry for the patients. I was like you've been here longer than me. Oh, bless them, yeah, and they're like exhausted. I honestly don't know how they're not losing their shit. I don't know how they're talking to me. They've been, they've been in pain, they've come to the emergency department. They can't sleep in a chair for 12 hours, they've just been sat there. And then they come and see me and none of them complained and I was like, oh, cutie pie, it was really cute. And I was like have you have they at least fed you, you know, and they had, thankfully. So I always check that when they've been there for that long, I'm like have you had food, water and, you know, pain relief as well?
Speaker 1:Yeah, um, the three bare necessities of life In hospital, anyway. And a doctor as a doctor, no, and a doctor, no, I'm there. And the bare necessities of being in a hospital. I would say a nurse is more important. Really, I'd rather have a nurse than a doctor. Can a nurse do more? But then a doctor can like, I don't know. I've thankfully never been in a situation. You, you spend more time with the nurse than you do with the doctor. The doctor's there for five minutes. Hi, hi in your drinks, perfect, sign it off next week. Yeah, I was like okay, you can go home now. Um, experience. Yeah, they spend way more time with the nurses. Fair enough, yeah, I guess you've never been in hospital so you probably don't know that, but yeah, they like they get to know their nurses and they don't know you. Well, sometimes I suppose my grandma spends more time with nurses when she's in hospital. Yeah, um, yeah anyway.
Speaker 1:So what we were talking about was, um, the fact that I was like yeah, so I think, um, I think it's not just you that's having a sort of career crisis. It's like, I think, everybody. That's why people get to midlife and they go wow, what am I doing with my life? And, um, I think everyone you know has a. I don't know, does anybody really love their job? I think some people do. Yeah, I think it's difficult, though, because I think you get pushed from school, at least when it at our age. I don't know if it's so much now, but at our age it was like right, you've got to go to uni, you've got to get a job, yeah, and that's kind of thing. That was the next step.
Speaker 1:I did a degree that I enjoyed, but really did I need to go and do a degree in psychology? No, not really no. So now, if I wanted to go, but what would you do? A degree in now? What are your interests? I feel like this is a careers counselling session. I know I have sort of semi-thought. Maybe I'll do the paramedic stuff.
Speaker 1:Don't go into healthcare, don't do it. Let me just go and get a new battery. That's Dawn's advice. Yeah, don't do it. I think, yeah, we're not going into healthcare. Oh my god, is Tom not out of bed? Oh my lordy, yeah. So what were you saying? You thought about going into health care, which, but I've been. I'm, you know we weren't going to healthcare. I don't know, I just I just think it's not paid that well, that's. It's like a ceiling of pay and big problem if you want to be a millionaire. It's not going to happen.
Speaker 1:I think you'd be a really good content creator, maybe, but it like you have to put in a lot of work and but I mean, you've got me. You know I could coach you. My YouTube channel is doing pretty well now I think I figured it out. Basically, you get to a point where you figure it out and you're like, oh, this is what you do, yeah, and I'll skip all that figuring out and just employ. Yeah, exactly, it took me three. That could be your job. You can be like a coach, a content you have no money to pay me. Also, I don't want to do that. What do you want to do? I want to create the content.
Speaker 1:True, I would love to have like weekly, weekly sessions where I like chat with someone, but trying to set that up is tricky. I'll be your weekly debrief content buddy. Yeah, you could definitely chat with me every week. I don't know that we stay on topic though. Yeah, they probably won't, but people might like that. I think people might like that because it's like it's just a chat, isn't it? Yeah, it's not like like scripted or some podcasts are already scripted but like you can just update people on our really tragic lives. I don't think your life is tragic. I do. You know what, though?
Speaker 1:I have this feeling every day, even as a doctor. Right, people think, wow, you're definitely succeeding in life. You've got a boyfriend, you've got a house well, I don't own it, but you know you're on the right track to succeeding in life. If we compare the two of us right now. But but if you the?
Speaker 1:The thing is right with medicine is everybody thinks everybody in medicine expects you to be progressing, like. The fact that I am not progressing in like my career progression path is I'm like very much not an anomaly, but like not following the like, I'm not following the trend. Yeah, and some of the older doctors don't really get that, because they just went straight through and you know what? I felt really bad about it. And when I come back I still feel bad about it because I get reminded every day that I'm not going anywhere. And then I think, but you're doing more in a way.
Speaker 1:I know, but the thing is I don't tell them that I do this stuff right, it's not that I hide it, it's just that I'm not like forthcoming. You know, if they said, do you have a podcast, I'd be like, yeah, maybe I need to come on shift with you and be like did you know? No, no, because I can't tell them you're a doctor, because they're going to know you're a doctor. So I'm going to be like you after. But there was a, not a situation, but like, yeah, I'll tell you after, um, and yeah, I'm like they don't know that I do all of this stuff outside of work. So it probably just looks like I go to work and then go home and that's it. And they're probably like, well, she only works three days a week and it's like, no, I work like six days a week because I'm doing it, like realistically, I'm doing this, then I have to edit it and that takes so long and that's why I haven't uploaded any podcasts in a while.
Speaker 1:Guys, and that's what I need to say is, I know my gym sessions are, yeah, I need to do some, but because I've been, basically, when I went away, before I went away, I recorded like eight episodes or something. Anyway, now I've come back, I have to edit all of them, like the footage. So you did like once on your toes. No, I edited them all before I left. I've recorded them all before I left, which is why on my podcast they're up, but they're not up on my youtube channel, right, and I've actually made a new youtube channel, okay, for my podcast, so separate to my actual youtube channel, because it was looking so messy and it kind of pained me inside, just so, yeah, I wanted them separate and now I've separated them.
Speaker 1:But the thing is you can't take all of the content from one YouTube channel and go right, I'm going to move it there. What you have to do is you have to download all of the videos individually. You can't, you can't group click them. No, you have to click more one, press another button and then click download. That's painful. Unclick it, click the next one. Do you know what I mean? And there's nearly 150 episodes. That's a lot, yeah, so like that's a lot of time.
Speaker 1:So it's taken me a really long time. So that's why I haven't uploaded for a while, because I thought do you know what, if I start then recording twice a week, then I've got that to do. That's going to build up and just stress me out. And I thought Asia has really taught me is why am I adding all this extra stress to my life? Like I haven't got a contract telling me that I need to upload this, I haven't got anybody working for me, so I can't offload that work and you know I can just take my time. If I had somebody editing videos, it would be fine because I could just record them and just go. You do it, yeah, um, but because I have to record them, then edit all this, stop it, because I have to.
Speaker 1:I actually have to plan them as well. You know it's not. I don't just start. You know the ones that you really like about like medical not medical stuff, but like health stuff. You gotta like know what you're talking about. Yeah, I have to go and research it off beforehand, so that takes me a while.
Speaker 1:So, yeah, yeah, you want to start your own podcast? I, yeah, I reckon maybe not a podcast. You can't really make great money from that unless you can put it on YouTube. But maybe start a YouTube channel maybe. I just would prefer just my voice and not my face. No one needs to see this. Maybe I'll just join you on yours instead. Yeah, co-host every week weekly sessions with just not really much script going on. We'll just, yeah, I prefer I just have bullet points, and then, if we stop, then I just go. I seem to be spending a lot of time in Bristol at the moment, so, yeah, I'll just stop by once a week, but hey, you boys better get used to hearing my voice. You're definitely way more comfortable in front of the camera, though, but um, yeah, so what else were you thinking about with your career?
Speaker 1:I haven't got any gray hairs yet, which, oh, I have. I can't see. Yeah, because I keep plucking them out. I think you can't see the ones, because if I, if they're like blatantly obvious here, like gone, but they're more like I don't know if you can see, I must have some somewhere. No, I definitely have found a couple, no, but then my dilemma is I try to look in the mirror to pluck them out and I'm looking up and I'm getting wrinkles on my forehead. So I'm like, do I want wrinkles or grey hair? And I have now come to the conclusion I don't want the wrinkles, so I'm just going to leave the hair. Do you know what? When you come for the weekly podcast session, I'll pick out your grey hairs. There we go, and then you won't get any wrinkles. Perfect, what a good deal. Yeah, I just I'm like, whatever forehead wrinkles, I'll just deal with it.
Speaker 1:I see so many people at the moment especially when I was traveling and now just generally in hospital like they're not patients, they're like relatives. Everyone looks like ducks, excuse me, like, oh, everybody's had the lips done. Everybody, not everybody. But like so many people, I think it looks so fugly. Yeah, because I'm like you. Look like it's just obvious. Nothing about it looks natural, you can just tell. I think the thing is, maybe it starts natural and then they just keep going. Nah, not for me, because they just reach a point where they're used to it and then they're like, oh, it looks a bit small again, and then it's like body dysmorphia or something. Not for me, nah, do, and I do. You know what? I look at myself a lot on the camera and I think, oh, my lips are like maybe my top lip's a bit small, so, but I think like that's normal. Yeah, I think white people in general have quite small top lips.
Speaker 1:If you look at photos of people on instagram, I look at people. I'm like, oh, like you don't you have a top lip, but like, does it really matter? Like you have a lip, like you're not, I know, still functioning. Yeah, your food isn't like falling out of your face. Like, just be thankful you've not had like sepsis or something or whatever on your face where you've had to, I know.
Speaker 1:But whatever surgery is great, like for people like that who need it, it's great. But you don't need it. Yeah, I know what you mean, but we were going to do an episode on that anyway, won't we? Like body image? Yeah, we can cover that, we'll cover that. Um, so, yeah, what? What are you looking for at the moment with like where are you going from here in your life? That is a very good question and one I don't think I can answer. Oh, tune in to the next episode. Tune in maybe in a year's time and I'll update you. But you must have like somewhere that you're going. You must be like right, okay, maybe this is where I'll go. No, this is the the problem. I don't know, but I have.
Speaker 1:I've started to look, for I want a job that's gonna be just a bit out of the ordinary. I get bored really easy. I like oh, my god, you said you were gonna go to Antarctica. Yes, don't do that. Okay, you'll hate it. There's like no one there. I know it's really cold. I know I thought it was like. I saw this job. It was advertising like south georgia. I was like right, it's gonna be lovely, it'll be just really tropical. I looked at it and I was like maybe not quite as tropical as I was expecting. Why is it desert or is it just cold? It? Well, I'd be living on the falkland islands and then getting a boat to the south georgia island, which is uninhabited. It sounds really fun, sophie, but the thing that's putting off you would go insane. Three years away from home would be sophie. There's nothing there, I know. So I'm thinking maybe not that job.
Speaker 1:I really struggled when I was in lao and there was like nothing going on. Yeah, I need you know. You were like I'm so done with Bangkok. I was like I need Bangkok. No, I hated Bangkok. Convenience yeah, I need convenience. I need a comfy bed. Convenience I need a bath. Oh my god, I had a bath in Bangkok and I have never.
Speaker 1:I didn't realize how clean you felt afterwards in a bath. Yeah, I never have baths. I haven't realise how clean you felt afterwards In a bath yeah, I never have baths. I haven't had a bath in years. No, but I just find it. If I have a bath, I like to have a shower first and then have a bath. Yeah, I had a shower first, because I don't like sitting in dirty water Actually, no, I didn't. Well, because I'd just come out of the jungle. I had all those sores, got my loofah and I sat in the bath and I was like got every fucking dead skin cell off my leg. It was great, just refresh.
Speaker 1:I tell you what, when I got to Bangkok and I showed the, showed the, my legs to the lady at the airport in the boot store. She was like everyone was so freaked out. They're not grandma's legs, don't get on. Not to that level. They're still healing. If they were like that at your age, I'd be like I tell you what though I don't know if it's the heat or because I've been bitten so much, but they were so swollen Like I looked at them, I was like, oh my God, you're so big Combination. Yeah, because when you get bitten, they obviously swell. Yeah, um, but yeah, they were pretty disgusting.
Speaker 1:Anyway, she gave me a steroid cream with antibiotic in it and that seemed to heal it, I think because I needed, I needed like medicine. Yeah, I had, like I had so many like open wounds. I was like, do you know what? I need to return to Bangkok and I need to be in a sterile environment because I yeah, then I think I'd be quite grateful to be in Bangkok, but like I was, like I was just like this is not Bangkok's not the most sterile place, but I was also, and I was also just loving like grabs. I'd like sit on the back of people's bikes and just they would just drive me around. I just fucking sit there and watch the world go by, yeah. So anyway, I keep, we keep not answering the question. We are going way off topic. I don't really know.
Speaker 1:I've sort of tried to look at. I've done like job searching and I'm trying to look at different things and like would I like to do this? Would I like to do that? I did see a really cool job as a trainee researcher for a TV company. As a trainee researcher for a TV company, and then so the advert. This is what really annoys me. The job ad was still there and I went to apply and it was like sorry, this job closed in like April. I'm like why are you still advertising? Why is it still online? That's annoying. Which is annoying because that one sounded like it could be quite fun. You sort of like have to research for like locations and stories and things, I reckon. So I don't know.
Speaker 1:I'm kind of maybe thinking I'll see what jobs are in the TV world because I feel like it'd be quite. It would just be constantly changing and I think I need a job that is going to just you could be a news reporter constantly change. Yeah, that's why I like medicine, I go in. I don't know who I'm going to see I don't know what I'm going to see and I know, obviously, like, obviously, like day to day, if you're in like an admin job, it's gonna be a bit different, but you're kind of doing the same tasks over and over and over again and that's. I can't do that. I need to be sort of like working on a project and then have another project. But I think you also maybe shouldn't work for somebody. No, I would love to work for myself, but I just don't know what I'd do. That's the problem. I'm excited to find out.
Speaker 1:Where does Sophie go in life? Because it could literally go anywhere. I could literally just go, and you know, who knows, don't go to Antarctica, please. Okay, I might not go to. I haven't put my application in yet because I just yet you're not doing it. You're not doing it. Okay, I'm not going to Antarctica. It was good money though. Yeah, because you're in the middle of nowhere. Yeah, I would definitely save, and once you're there, getting out there is not easy. No, because I'd probably have to fly to south america. Oh, my god, that sounds like the worst idea ever. Yeah, it would be an adventure, it would sure, but To the shore, but then you're stuck in Antarctica for three years. Yeah, it'd be long, stay tuned, stay tuned. I literally couldn't go anywhere. You're literally the coldest person I know. I know I hate the cold. Maybe go I don't know live in. I was going to say go live in like somewhere tropical, but that's actually hard work as well. That would be tough, I don't know, we'll see.
Speaker 1:Do you like animals? Why don't you do something with animals? I know people keep telling me this, but I just don't know if I want to work with them like I love them. But would I want to work with them? You should do dog walking in the interim. I could. Yeah, I might look into dog walking. I reckon you should do that because I did that when I was not working as a doctor. It's I wouldn't say it's easy. No, it's like Every job's got its difficulties. But I think once you've got like an established thing going on and also you run, so you could run with them, could do. But yeah, we'll see, stay tuned.
Speaker 1:And if you have a job, hit me up because I'm very fun and you're keen for a girlfriend in three years? Oh yeah, not anytime soon. I do not need, I don't need that distraction. You know, like I need to figure myself out before I bring someone else. Fair enough, unless you're a rich, rich guy who's never in the picture and just sophia's makes you sound really superficial. But then I wouldn't have to work I'm just kidding, she's not anyway.
Speaker 1:On that note, I want to make my own money. But you know, yeah, I think it'd be nice to have pocket money. Yes, I, I said if Tom becomes a millionaire, he can give me pocket money. Yeah, but then that's like open to, not with Tom, but just generally, like that's how you become dependent on somebody, yeah, and I think there would be no like sense of accomplishment. Yeah, you feel like you're not getting anything out of life, you're just existing. You're just existing, yeah, and also like you're just existing, yeah, and also like you don't want to be dependent on somebody. And then then go, well, you were naughty, so you didn't get your allowance, or um, you can't leave. You've got no backup, have you? You've got no, yeah, like investment in yourself. So, yeah, I was just actually kidding on that one.
Speaker 1:But I will take a job. I'll take a job. If anyone's got a job, go in at this point. Yeah, it'd be so fun if you worked in Bristol, maybe. Anyway, I reckon we should finish because we need to go to Clarkson's Farm. Yes, you're coming, I don't know. Yeah, what's the time? Yeah, anyway, maybe I'll come. We could like have a coffee and then I'll drive home. Yeah, yeah, because we're just gonna. I need to be home because ro's got his play date. Okay, let me just do the outro, okay, and then we're kind of talking yeah, um, let's wrap it up.
Speaker 1:Thanks so much for watching listening, guys. Uh, sophie, you're gonna be listening to this. I will be listening. That's maybe the only person I don't listen to myself. Yeah, you'll be fine. I don't like the sound of my own voice, sorry, yeah, but you get used to it. You get used to it. Okay, I'll be back next week. I'm just going to scrap my own podcast You've gone off the side and just join Dawn for each week. Thanks so much for watching, guys. This has been Sophie and Dawn, and We'll see you next week. We'll see you next. I was going to say Tuesday, but Is it Friday today? It is Friday today. See, that's what happens when you're unemployed you don't know the day you lose track. Bye, bye, okay, that's done, all finished. Who have I gotten notifications from? Love you.
